The Morse Family

Well, it has been a long time since I have posted about these guys.  More than two months has passed since we lost baby Jeremy, and the Morses are taking life day by day, enjoying every moment God has given them, and trying to adjust to the Jeremy-sized hole in their home and hearts.  Amy and I got to have dinner together last week, which is something we don’t get to do often, and it was so great to just sit, sip margaritas and pour out whatever needed to get out.  Since the moment I met Amy, I knew she was special, and I am so thankful to call her friend.  It is so difficult to watch your friend go thru such a horrific time, not knowing what to say or do, knowing that you can’t do anything to fix it or change it.  But I cherish Amy’s friendship, as well as Scott’s, and each of her beautiful children, no matter how lost for words I am.  I know God has put us together for a reason.  Amy has started her own blog called Finding Sunshine, and if you have the time (and I know if you’re reading this YOU DO!) check it out.  She is an absolute inspiration.  The last post she wrote talked about the dreaded question, “How many children do you have?” and how to answer it.  Up to that point, there wasn’t anything about her situation I could relate to.  But when she wrote that, I thought, “Hey!  I understand that!”  As some of you may know, I have a son who I placed for adoption 15 years ago.  I have a Zach-shaped hole in my heart that I live with everyday.  I know it isn’t the same, and I chose my situation, and Amy most certainly has not chosen hers, and I have peace of mind knowing that Zach is alive and doing well, and Amy was not afforded such a luxury.  But just focusing on that question…I feel like I have one thing that I actually get.  I know its not a big thing, and it is very different, but it is something.  And sometimes it is all we need. 

So when I went to visit them last week, we wanted to do something to honor Jeremy.  Amy bought some balloons, and had the kids write messages to Jeremy, and we let the balloons float up to heaven so Jeremy would know how much they miss him.  Each of the kids took pride and care with what they wrote and drew, even 2 year old Nolan.  It just breaks my heart that they have to try and understand why their brother isn’t here anymore, but these kids are so amazing, and they celebrate Jeremy in so much of life.  Its just precious.  Here is Trevor making his message:









And Meredith (she was looking at his birth announcement so she wouldn’t misspell his name):

















  And Nolan:


















Once all the messages were made, we tied them to balloons and headed outside to let them go.  The sky was unbelievably blue!  And I love the look on Nolan’s face in this photo:


















Up, up and away!


















This was such a sweet thing to witness, I am so grateful to have been there.  They had done this before as a family at the cemetery, and Amy shared about that on her blog.  It was very touching.  There is a photo of Meredith on her knees praying over Jeremy’s grave…I can’t stop looking at that photo.  Just precious.

And as I was leaving we grabbed this shot of everyone’s feet…the kids donning their Jeremy bracelets, and Amy with her sunshine painted on her toe…all in honor of Jeremy. 













Thank you, Amy, for letting me be part of your life…for better, for worse.  I’m here for it all.  I love you.


3 Responses to “The Morse Family”

  1. 1 Shelane August 25, 2008 at 8:55 pm

    Amazingly beautiful!!

  2. 2 Trisha Schneider August 26, 2008 at 2:05 pm

    Wow–those are so beautiful! We send balloons up for my nephew and just write messages on them with a Sharpie–I never thought about tying a note to it. Thanks for sharing that.
    My sister answered that difficult question just once saying that she only had one child & it has tortured her ever since–she now says she has two, one here and one in heaven. That is the only thing she’s been comfortable with and has decided if it makes others uncomfortable, they’ll be okay.

  3. 3 Pam August 26, 2008 at 7:49 pm

    Heather, beautiful writing and beautiful images of their special time. My prayers are with them daily. Thanks for letting us know about her blog, I will check it out. I’m so glad she has you as a friend.

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